I know but I don't feel

I know he is there, reaching out his hand, and I need to reach out my hand and grasp his.
So why do I find that little effort to be so difficult? Too difficult.
I'm almost ready to give up.
I need help.
How many times must I call out?
How many words must be spoken.
I know I need help. Part of me wants to ask
And the other part of me just wants to curl up and die.

I know I'm in his hands, in his arms. But I just can't feel it.

Still trying to figure out what is wrong with me.